Loneliness

B & I have decided that I need to learn how to be comfortable with loneliness. I’m talking about the feeling of loneliness. Everyone has their demons and this is one of mine. I recognize it by the physical symptoms. It starts with the feeling of free falling, like on a roller coaster, ending with…

Relaxation 

Sometimes, I wish B would just stop with his observations of me. He commented that I don’t have a lot of “relaxing” activities in my arsenal. He thinks I need to relax more. He also had to explain the difference between “fun” vs “relaxation” to me.  After thinking hard, I discovered 2 things that fits…

My kryptonite 

“You know what my kryptonite is?” “What?” “People. There’s no logic there.” “It’s not them. It’s you. You insist on applying logic to them.” “No…emotions. Emotions are not logical.” “Your awareness of human emotion is very bad. And emotions can be logical.” “Yes. It can. It’s just a whole different system.” A system that has…

Confirmed fears…

I asked B if it was weird for a 12 years old to spend her whole summer reading and not interacting with friends. I spent one of my summer visiting the library every day. I borrowed books, go home, read them, return the books, rinse and repeat for 2.5 months. I didn’t talk to anyone…

Current Favorite Youtubers

Ever since high speed internet became the norm, I stopped watching TV. B’s the only person who still watches TV. He loves his sitcoms. Anyway, I’ve discovered some really awesome YouTubers that are making helpful, useful, and thought provoking content. Here are a few that I’ve discovered this month and whom I’ve been actively watching. …

Ex bf #3

I was at Tim Ho’s today buying breakfast when a 40-ish years old man made eye contact with me. He kept smiling and looking at me. Being me, I automatically smiled back because I’ve been socialized to be nice to people. That was a huge mistake on my part. He took that as a green…

Inspiration of the day

B’s dad sent us a link on how to deal with pool of water in our backyard. This darn rain is killing us. I decided to peruse the website more because I secretly want to be a gardener. If you’re feeling shitty about life and want something inspirational, give this a read: http://mikesbackyardnursery.com/about/ You’ll want…

Vegas

We were having hot pot and B asked me if I wanted to tag along on his boys’ trip to Alberta to visit my sister. I obviously said yes. Then he mentioned that his buddy wanted to go to Vegas instead but he wasn’t sure where he wants to go. I had mixed feelings about…