Month: September 2017

Recharge

Today has been an exhausting day. I had my performance review at work – it went great (IMO). I asked a lot of questions and I learned more about my boss, which made me love her more than I already did. And then I had counselling – which was exhausting as usual. I’ll expand on …

Priorities

I haven’t been sick in a very long time. But I caught the cold over the weekend. B got sick and gave me his cold.  I was like “my immune system is on hyper alert.  I’ll be fine.” I totally over estimated my own strength. I got super sick and have to miss 2 days …

Monkhood

While walking through Walmart yesterday, I felt an overwhelming sadness for how tough life is and how much suffering there are in this world. It doesn’t matter who you are (rich, poor, pretty, ugly…etc),  you can’t escape it. I turned to B and said “I’ve been thinking about pursuing monkhood. What do you about it?” …

My turn off

Most of my posts these days are going to be more self reflection type of posts.  Random thoughts to be honest. So take what I write with a grain of salt.  What turns me off:  1. Stupidity + arrogance. Stupidity on its own, I can forgive because I’ll chock it up to ignorance.  However, what …

Boundaries 

For kids who grew up with abusive and disrespectful parents, we don’t have boundaries. We have negative emotions when someone treats us a certain way. But we don’t have healthy ways of understanding them, processing them, and then communicate them in a respectful and healthy manner. Why? Because we actually tried it a few times …

Progress

The progress of my mood disorder is very very slow. It’s like 1 step forward, 10 steps back. I realized that adult life of a North American, at this moment in time, is conducive to mental illness/aggravate it further. Food: it’s kinda difficult and expensive to nourish myself with organic, pesticide free, antibiotic free – …

Counseling

In my counselor’s words, “I’ve been doing this for 30 years, I rarely see someone who’s as severely depressed as you. You’re in the 0.5% of the clients I’ve seen.” “You mean half of your clients?” (I was having a blond moment) “hahaha. no…You scored 49/50 on [test name]. It’s a pretty accurate test. What’s …