My phone automatically goes into “do not disturb mode” around 8pm. I’ve set it to be that way. I’ve also shut down all of my social media. I have no kids. No contract work right now. B is working tonight and I’m left with a lot of free time on my hand.
I found myself eating rice rolls, listening to moral psychology and American politics. Why American politics is beyond my comprehension. I’m Canadian. It’s not even relevant to me but it’s so damn interesting.
I found myself wondering who I can discuss or talk about these things with and I came up with zero. Nada. Maybe with B, when he’s high and having a moment. For the most part, he prefers to not think about much.
Even last night, my idea of relaxation was listening to “Why we get fat” and the role insulin plays in it. B was like “Why are you listening to this?!”
“It calms me down.”
“It does. Let me be.”
“ok” *turns to his Shin-chan anime*